Shop till i broke...

Today is the day where once in a year, chrismast songs are playing in the air and at the same time i will be dazzled by the extravagance decoration in the city's major shopping malls....

The day started slow as yesterday visited emergency and trauma and kinda slept late in the early morning.

I went to a Korean Restaurant with James and Kyan and later proceed to Sunway Pyramid with Kyan.The food was great by the way,especially the dessert...

You will not believe the crowd in Sunway....the place was just filled with throngs of people here and there,young,old,funky,foreign,casual...you named it.The second amazement of the day was the chrismast tree in Sunway.Although not as impressive and breathtaking as the one i saw in One Utama last time,the Chrismast trees were nicely decorated with strands of clear strips illuminated from within by the trees decorated with many colourful lights.They all formed a cone shape and emitted a very indian style of deco(maybe due to the cone...haha)

Walking from shop to shop is a test on how to avoid bumping to people and test my patience level at the same time as i need to wait for some slowpoke to give way or make a u turn(sounded like driving in traffic...)But the joyous feeling i gained today was seeing lots of happy faces all around me,laughing at people who tried to ice skate,but failed...haha...evil....(one even need a wheelchair for assistance after a hard fall...oh my god...),buying things that i needed...Burned a lot of calories today.

We had a nice dinner and ended the shopping spree with a very expensive cab ride....Yes,today the last amazement was how much money that i spent.....

I may not realize or fully understand the true spirit chrismast,but from what i see today,it is a chance for friends,family,lovers to get together and spend precious time together,even though it means competing with strangers to grab the best shirt/pants among the bundles...

And i wish that one day i will experince a white chrismast.....snow....:)

Merry Chrismast my dear friends!!!

A dose of humor 1

i think the cat mistaken the tip of the nose as his mum's nipple...LOL...

by ichc.com

A beautiful day....

Although early morning class today with Prof Yip sort of reduced my sleeping time and the new admission gave me a small dose of adrenaline rush(cynthia told me about him last nite 1030pm...bummer),i find that today's weather is so nice...

The morning sunshine is so warm and occasionally breeze blowing...at the moment no (stat)obligation to be fulfilled and staying in the room is such a simple enjoyment....Though at the back of my mind sugery case summary , forensic report and growth project are still crying for some attention...haha...procastrination....bad habit....happens to all medical students...:)

Hopefully this nice weather and feeling last....

Time....

Start of final year:
still plenty of time...relax ....

Early of the year:
Ortho...so interesting...read slow2

Middle of the year:
O and G i hate the most...depressing times....
Peads is so busy...shortness of breath...

Near end of final year:
Oh My God...what am i doing.....second last posting liao...zzz....but i feel sleepy most of the time...no.....

Time is slipping away when one tried to make full use of it....I am hopeless....sigh...I really want a time machine....

Just a thought

Today when having supper with a friend , a thought came across my mind...

Since when i became so cynical...like one of my friend who posted "warmth" recently ,i do agree with her in her views.

Sometimes we cant really expect too much from anything or anybody.For friends that i cherished i will give them my all.While for those who really get on my nerves i dont even want to ruin my day just by letting them appear in my visual field. One may think this is so extremely and may wonder how i would survive in the cruel and nasty world outside by not making 'friends"here and there.I beg to differ,when we have a choice,why not choose who means the most to you closer?Let them be a part of your life and share a laugh once in a while.

Compare to those who are really unspeakable....(beyond the capacity of words description),it is just a waste of time of even just talking to them.I am just not good of putting up a mask and be a part of masquerade like it is happening here in my living enviroment.

And living in this "prestigious" medical student life,i am still searching the" meaning of life" aside from realizing the reason for putting myself into medical school...

Just when i thought i figured out where i wanted to go,while in the middle of chasing it,it may be just a illusion....there's no real meaning or satisfying reason of actually having it...

I always ask myself not to worry to much,care too much, and just be myself....probably that is the best way of living in this enviroment ,yet on other part of my life,the answer is still unreachable.

In the end we are just humans who are searching for a place they call home,finding a reason to believe in,and maybe just need to fill in the puzzle piece that is missing for so long...

NEW posting...SURGERY...

My second last posting before the final showdown-----SURGERY....
It was once a posting i loved so much...now still is...hehe....and today at least i changed my enviroment and didnt stuck with people that infuriate me so much anymore....ohoho(victorious laugh)

Plus my "mentor" is Prof Chin who came back from UK recently....i am so happy....laporoscopic expert...people say he might be very good at video game too...

ahh....second last posting... ADD OIL MY FRIENDS!!!

Stranded again after swimming...zzz...

No....unfortunate things happen again...

After happily swam in UM pool(markedly improve water quality),the first intention was to buy bread in SS2...and disaster happen one more time travelling in motor with kim yan...zzzz

The motor just suddenlly went silent and refused to be ignite even after several vigorous attempt by Kim Yan.Conveniently i was being blamed again as the unlucky one to bring bad luck,aaa....no....

Guys if really afraid of bad luck and you believe it please dont come near me,initially i do believe in it,but in the end,i really need to remember :"shits happen."So,believe what you wana believe.

Sigh...shits really happen when you least expected it....I will RISE above....rise above.......aaaa....

1 day Conference In Prince Court Medical Center

My morning started with a voice outside zzzz......it was Kian Hua voice , asking me wether i wana join them (as a replacement)to go for a one day conference in Prince Court.I was still feeling very drowsy and a bit groogy....but after making sure there was no possible complication i agreed...it turned out to be a very great day for me.

The journey of getting to Prince Court was sort of a drama (between Azhani and Kian Hua)as the direction of getting there was not an easy task.I felt lucky i wasnt helping with the map reading...or else we would end up in god's know where...haha .The compound outside Prince Court was not as impressing(we couldnt even find the logo)as the interior part of the medical center...Kinda reminds me of Seattle Gray...But the overall design of the building is not the typical medical center...more like a five star hotel...

All the presenters and topics were very informative though some were quite out of my league and a bit boring(1 medical officer even fell asleep and snorred).Topic was focused on Cancer Cell Biology and case based discussion on colorectal carcinoma and breast carcinoma. The food was fabulous,and lots of gooffy moments through out the day.Plus i sort of patched things up with my very supportive studygroupmate (though it was a bit awkward and very hilarious when she admitted on reading my previous blog post,LOL...)

We snapped some photos and overall today it was a FINE day for me.I really need to thank the girl who let me replaced her and Kian Hua,Azhani,Selene and Rita for a great company.

Forensic....Death....

Today went to complete the quota on my forensic medicine...observed and signed 3 autopsies in one go...hehe...though not really all 3,the moment i went there 2 were nearly finish and 1 was just about to start.

Seeing those body lying there,really made me feel uncomfortable and experince sudden chills. Coming face to face with the "sequelae" of death,it felt so empty,and yet human are so fragile with such a brief existence.Those experts are really experts,1 did not even wore a mask ...And i find that human will lost their dignity after the soul has left the body(the scene of the body being manipulated,or handled in different ways triggered this thought)...

Some people might think why i get emo about dead bodies...but they were once alive with people that loved them...now it felt as though it was just an empty shell...

Plus today's case was extremely "challenging"because of the stench coming from the stomach content...one of the body was decomposing(found after a few days from the time of death)....huhu.....

Forensics medicine....i hope i never meet u again(aside from OBGY,PCM,SPM,Opthalmology .... XD)

A FURIOUS Day!!!!

Ah.....The anger,frustration,dissapointment and everything negatives had reached it peak today....

Posted to a posting than need to arrange every classess through the department,every lecturers are famous for the "ampleness",and another "very efficient" office guy than is running the job of calling and informing....Finally,the posting that had meet the match of PCM,opthalmology department....

They squeeze two session of clinic presentation in 1 morning,as if the anxiety of getting a new case is not enough,the very efficient office guy forgot to inform us than 2nd session lecturer prefer to do it in ward,therefore,clerk case in Ward,then i basically ran to the ward and find a case and clerk in 15 minutes.The Dr today had a very "nice" attitude towards me and so far everything had just been so perfect for that morning.

To add in the icing, i have very nice and supportive groupmates who would just complain and ask about anything unnessary(unsatisfactory oncal list,presentation to lecturer...etc),and everything in this world is about them.

The day was not finish yet,plus another issue with my "supportive" studygroupmate made me even more irritated....yes,that was the point where all the foul mood erupted...It just amazed me that humans can evolved into this kind of state...."selfish,self centered,self absorb,high dependency(as if in Intensive Care Unit)....Nearly all the words had the "self" inside....plus i keep imagining this picture in my head that my blood is being sucked dry by all these people(in my head it was a creature...haha...)

I Just want to shout outloud...:"Stop disturbing my Peace!!!!"

Tropic Thunder,must watch!!!

Another Ben Stiller movie which will just make anybody in the lowest mood to laugh out real loud again(since in an irritating posting plus irritating groupmates thus really need this boost...haa...)

Anybody who like lots of explosion,war like action plus endless of funny suprises perhaps this is the perfect movie to spend time on.Movies by Ben Stiller usually have certain level that meets my requirements...hehe...and this time he had Iron Man (Robert Downey Jr) working alongside with him,plus other bigtime actors and actress appeared now and then...

A day of joy and sense of relieve...

At last,after 1 week plus of intensive study(not really,slack off in the middle),and two days of pure adrenalin rush ,i passed my ACLS....:-D

Advanced Cardiovascular Life Support(ACLS) is a course held by Accident and Emergency department in UH.The course was very gruelling as i need to perform CPR and had a CPR competency test....Plus tons of treatment pathway for heart rhythms problems and how to use the defibrillator machine and...etc etc....Practical test(Megacode) and written test were on today...and i had a bad dream about it...huhu...Luckily still able to pass.

I would recommend to anyone who are interested to go.But better have more time to study and prepare for it,as it is not guaranteed pass even though u pass up RM500(another reason i was so pressured to pass this course)

All the instructors are very friendly and resourceful.Especially Dr Alex who indirectly pushed me to remember harder to say"i am goin to deliver a shock on 3!"....hehe...will never forget that.Dr Wee,Dr Izzad,Dr Khalid are also very helpful with all those extra tips...huhu..Thanks.....

Relaxation and rest,i Need you both....:)

Staying Alive-A must read

Stumbled on this particular books last 2 weeks ago and now nearly finish reading it.Ample time in current posting gave me a chance to do the many things i liked-reading :)

This book was written by Janet Reibstein,a book or rather a family memoir largely concerning about breast cancer.The book vividly described the nature of breast cancer ,its psychological effects on sufferers and surrounding people,the aftermath even after post operation.It started off with Janet's mother's,her aunts and finally it reached Janet herself.

It is interesting and eye opening to see and at least feel together with the writter how breast cancer can alter life but yet,not surrender to it.This lifestory demonstate courage to live, honesty,love and respect in the times of dire need.

Sometimes we have the urge to cry with patients or hide that drop of tear that may nearly escape while in the middle history taking .Often in reality,at least for me,all of this emotion got swallowed up.I always wonder,is it FINE to show how we truely feel,or just be the shoulder to let them cry on?We will be the bringer of good or bad news,and we will always forget,patients are humans like us too,all they need is another person aside from their family to tell them :"i am with you."

If you give this book a chance,you may get more than you bargain for.

Night until dawn in Accident and Emergency...

Sunday night was a night i suddenly felt so motivated to go and do something in ANE....But it turned out to be a very rewarding experince even though i am so tired right now...(till no mood to study)...

The Drs are so nice in ANE...Dr Khalid,Dr Mahmoud...and another Dr i cant remeber what was his name.Even though i met failure a few times in getting that branula inside those tiny little veins...they still feel grateful that i helped out.Plus the Drs let me sutured on my own but helped out by another senior staff nurse...(after he ascertained i knew what i was doing...)

Plus the patients came with such diverse complaint....head injury due to trauma,assault,chest pain,hepatic encephalopathy,seizure,dehydration,myocardial infarction,possible drug overdose,asthma....endless.And each of them were so willing to entertain med student like me for some questions...

ANE...finally i see what a lot of colleagues and Drs want me to see....It is a place where everything is "Happening"...but i know not everyday will be this Sunday i had...but i am grateful for it...:)

Series addictions...Greys...

Aside from becoming an bleachmaniac,desperatemaniac,pushing daisy maniac.....tons of other maniacs.....(gasp)....im in fear that maybe i am getting too addictted to all those wonderful western series....

Nowadays im watching series that i never even thought i liked.To name a few Gossip Girl,Mentallist,Fringe,My Name Is Earl ....the latest to my addition of addiction is True Blood...oh somebody save me....(Small ville)

Just finish the latest Grey's and this episode 7 for season 5 is not too bad,finaly the story picked up the flavour again as previous few episode was not so intriguing to me...Lots of people hated the sex part in Greys,bt actually they dont watch too much of series because what is in Greys is not too bad if compare to others(eg Nip/Tuck).This episode brought some issues on :

Wether is it really ethically correct for covering up for fellow collegue in med legal case (Izzie 's story with Denny)

Correct bedside manner and attitude(Dr Hunt's enragement over the attitudes of the residents when dealing with patient and Dr Bailey's reaction when she found out they used cadavers to practice surgery but didnt pay proper respect to them)

Wether what we do is beneficial to the patients(argument between Chief and Dr Hans over Izzie's past mistake)

Issues concerning medical ethics sometimes is really hard to define right or wrong when it involves too many people(esp if we know or care too much).If we take Dr Hans perspective into account,probably Izzie wont be in Grey's anymore.But the "correct" thing to do in real life would be reporting izzie ,as everything in real life is centered around patient's well being.

But the Chief's argument was proper action had been taken and Dr should learn from past mistakes and become an even excellent Dr.We cannot deny that this sounds right too .We are humans and will make tons of mistakes in our brief existences.The only way to make sure we do no harm in practice is to make tons of it when we are 'in training" and "supervised" so that we can learn from it.Mistakes and failures are part of our lifes and enriched us to become a better person and DR(some Dr told me before).Some patients in real life dont understand Drs are human too and got a lawyer to punish for the imperfection.

But the funny thing is,if we dig up the past and it doesnt makes any difference to the management and well being of the patient(even though reporting is the right thing to do)will you still do it??I know i wont...plus there will always be grey areas no matter where or what we do.

On the other hand Izzie's love to Denny is never ending...(sigh....pure love...sob2).

Another series im hooked up is True Blood.I loved it because of the drama,cool actors and actress,not to mention bloody fictional and just simply COOL!!! :)Though totally different from Greys...haha....series....I am so in love ....

10 Promises To My Dog

Since accident and emergency teaching or rather the unformal classess are over,thought of being hardworking by studying in the morning,but when i switch on my laptop that always filled with all those unseen movies....really cant fight the temptation...:)

As i was clicking for entertainment to go with this morning's roti canai,i finally spotted what i wanted to watch...10 Promises To a Dog

This is a story about a girl named Akari and her little puppy golden retriever(my favourite breed of dog...XD)Socks.The story revolved around where they grew up together,experinced the sadness of seperation , shared the joy of reuniting,and other ups and downs in life...

Socks was so esssential in Akari's life because she was the one who kept her going after her mother passed away. Akari met Socks not long ago .Since the begining,Akari's mum help Socks to get 10 promises from Akari....:

1)Listen patiently to what i have to say

2)Trust me,i will always be by your side

3)Play with me a lot

4)Dont forget,i have feelings too

5)Let's never fight,someday i will win

6)If i dont obey you,i have a good reason

7)You have schools and friends,but as for me,i only have you

8)Stay as my best friends,even when i am old

9)I Lived for about 10 years,so let's make every moments counts

10)Never forget the time we be together,keep this in your mind,so when my time comes,please be by my side

This movie is so simple but yet reaches into people's heart.And it is true, puppies can be a better friends to us in real life rather than those people who betrayed you but still pretending they cared or those people who find you when they needed something from you(so disgusting)...Between Akari and Socks,we can really see the pure trust,love and friendship(though every relationship have their problem...hehe)

This is another superb movie after "Quill"(another story about a Golden retriever)

Because of this movie,i added in another 10 reasons i should really befriend a doggy in this cutthroat world....sigh....have to wait and wait until i have my own place and time...huhu....

Have a peek at this movie,you wont regret it :)

P/S:may get symptoms of teary eyes(epiphora) and sudden onset of increased nasal discharge(rhinorrhea)

It rained :)

The weather had been so hot lately...finally it rained today....Been feeling a bit unwell these few days...now infective rhinitis has reach it's full throttle....constant nasal discharge and nose block just give me the irks!...

Been thinking a lot about my future and how uncertain life would be...I am actually considering to do houseman in SAbah but i already filled in HOspital Melaka as first choice...Do not know what is my option now because i am having this crazy thoughts of volunteering to Sabah during interview....haha....Now waiting for prof Patrick Tan's email reply....Guess his taking his sweet time in Sydney...:)

When i think of final exam next year March and all the stuff i had forgot....will be on the edge of stressing out...so many things to revise...currently at my 3rd last posting...Minor postings...The sense of "impending death"(like myocardial infarction) is so scary..

Sigh....worries worries....though most of the time trying to be happy,but will always succumb when think of the future and final exam....I need to remind myself all the time...Must pass and beome a safe DR...

ENT ending and New 192 bleach!!!

Finally ENT is coming to an end...nice posting btw and today jus won a battle over the sister in ENT ward....She asked the younger batch to cal us back for oncall even though there were already 3 people oncal for today???where is the logic to that??enough thrashing, but the happy thing is the head of department ENT agreed upon the cooperation we have with the younger batch.1 week older batch oncall and second week younger batch responsable for oncal.(was imagining the face of the sister when she hears this...haha)





My anticipation of Nel chan transforming finally come true in bleach 192..XD.Wilson vpress me after he watch tht episode...haha



This is just a photo of a girl cosplaying Nel chan (taken fromhttp://fc03.deviantart.com/fs24/f/2007/345/5/4/Nel_Bleach3_by_opeth_metal.jpg) in her true form...She is my second favourite character after Toushiro...Dont know how her character will progressed in comparison to the one in comic...Bleach---Best anime EVER....In this episode Nel chan finally can have a chance to save ichigo....beat the crap out of that iriitating Noitora....ohoho....

tomolo ENT VIVA...hope to end this real quick...huhu

A scene in Pudu

Today in pudu i witnessed something that catched my breath while on metro 12 bus.Jus when the bus started to move pass the section where lots of buses to Klang gather,suddenlly i saw a poor guy being pushed around by a bunch a people...Not mentioning race here since it is so sensitive,in fact those who were pushing tht poor guy were multiethnic...tht guy was middle age and wearing what i thought was a turban.He did not looked local and my guess was he was in trouble.There was a lot of shouting and he was pushed back to a motorcycle...The bunch of people was showing angry faces and gestures and it jus scares me of how many people can gang up against a guy...the bus passed the scene before i could see more...Did not truely know what happen,in my mind i just worry about the guy wether he will get beaten up later....(shivers....)

Plus i am wondering some people who was shouting really involved with the problem or just join in to bully tht guy....i will never know...sigh...

Maybe this kind of things happen everyday,but i think tht in our secluded life of medical student,real life is shadowed unless we start to work next year...seeing all the tragedy....all kinds of social problem that happen in all walks of life...what future instores is just like a pandora box....haha...

And this reminds me of d incident when my one of my friend involved in an traffic accident back in Klang.The police was so slow and didnt even turned up to control the situation.Not suprisingly the trouble maker gathered his gang and the crowd start to pile up in no time...sigh...consider a norm in Malaysia....Bt in the end fortunately my friend was alright ....

Malaysia,not the best but not too bad,hopefully wind of change will come

ENT...

Tomolo will go bac hometown again... actually i find d curent posting is very pressure free,.d minor thing i dun like is the clerk ,ms Bavani (so...chuan sui)and the mixing with d younger batch...they r such a big group and there r only 7 of us....among them they hav this Mr Syed who's already a maxillo-facial surgeon...zzz....i dun mind even if they outperform us during Q and A....i jus want to laid back bt some of the ent surgeon jus target d poor "old "group.Today Dr Anura expressed her amazement how finally some1 can answer her branches for ext carotid artery question,and he is from d younger group....(Dr Syed of course)haha...dun care.....

Looking forward to go home...bt d journey to Pudu always make me feel tired....took away d joy of going back a bit....Must enjoy d weekend...huhu!

Free at last....

yeah.....short case finished d....guess this time luck really at my side....hopefully able to pass ...huhu...

Jus found out my posts in friendster were never lost...Bt guess i will jus stick to here...seems more clean and nice...

Now spending time on series and Bleach...Bleach 190 is out...(jumping up and down and screaming)The intro and ending are so cool and nice....Finally the fillers ended and no more Lurichiyo san....yeah....bt d entire episode kinda repeat from the previous ones....bt i still enjoyed it...ohohoh....grimjow is jus so cool...even though he was defeated...

Looking forward to the next episodes.....faster faster.... ^-^

My new blog...

Start a new blog though have lots of entries in friendster...really frustrated when my previous previous posts since second year were nowhere to be found in friendster....shit....aa.....all my thoughts during travelling....sad....now will write and vent everything here....no more friendster losing blog....aaa...Plus since lots of people are blogging here and lots of frens can be connected...why not...haha.....(blogging scandal....hehe.....)

Really not feeling creative enough to name my blog...haha...simple stole something from "my neighbour totoro" by Hayao Miyazaki...i hope i dun caused an outrage.Love all d anime by him.If only human is as true and sincere as in totoro,the world would be a much better place....

PAediatric posting is comin to an end,gonna miss the busy days bt can finally catch my breath.....tomolo hav a short case date with Prof Asma and Dr Chai...Hope i dun get fried...