Inspiration....

Tiredness....plus other emotions sets in...sometimes it's the result of multiple stressors,especially in this time around...Not much of time left,but there are so many things to revise...

Going to the wards,noticed the patients are so tolerant of us,knowing we are having our finals soon...some patients lamented and tired,but still willing to let us put our stethoscope on their chest,some are facing major surgery tomorrow,but yet they still willing to share their story with us...and during these hard times when i thought i need to give some comfort to them,instead they gave me encouragement and inspiration in return...

I am so fortunate,to have met them .I am fortunate also,to have friends that would give strength and share this hard times together...Learning medicine with them adds another level of meaning into this 5 years of medical students life.

Inevitably,i felt this stress i am having is so miniscule,compare to patients' big hearts and courage.We always learn from them,about medicine ,and about life.That adds in as another reason why i should do well and pass this exam...Must ADD OIL......

The Man Who Cant Be Moved-The Script

Nice song to listen over and over again...:)

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,

Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,

Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,

Some try to hand me money they don't understand, I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,

I know it makes no sense,

but what else can I do,

How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,

I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,

Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,

If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.I'm not moving... I'm not moving.

People talk about the guyWho's waiting on a girl... Oohoohwoo

There are no holes in his shoes

But a big hole in his world... Hmmmmand maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,

And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,

And you'll come running to the corner...

Cos you'll know it's just for youI'm the man who can't be movedI'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving... I'm not moving.I'm not moving... I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

Suprised encounter in the men's room...

Met this fascinating creature a few days ago in the men's room in 6th college...Find it quite interesting with it's huge "clamps" on both of its arm and those big greenish eyes patrolling around the sink...for a moment there while i was washing my hand i thought it was going to attack me...:)...and duno who's lucky Nescafe cup....

A dose of humor 2

My friends forwarded some really cute photos...really mood lifting,and made u think twice of having kids or a dog in the future....hehe,maybe having both is just the best damn thing in life...haha...

Confabulation....

I am so in love with this word recently...As i was a newbie in Psychiatry...confabulation was such a foreign word....The meaning ,according to stedman dictionary is :"the making of bizzare and incorrect response,and a readiness to give a fluent but tangential answer,with no regards whatever to facts...."...

I have been using it so often(verbal and practically)....sometimes it occur spontaneously when i was struck with unprepared question from lecturers....sometimes was just trying to save myself and oncall partner from a vicious scolding or writting a explain letter....yes....Confabulation....an act of self defense,an act of self saving.....

Mind you,i am not having memory lost,or demented...it was pure gesture of life saving technique...i may be a sinner...but amazingly i felt no guilt...but definitely,confabulation is not a word for medical student in his final MBBS,yes,this i promise myself...haha....

Expectations...

With different people or different relationship,one would have different expectations...

A friend would be expected to:

Understand

Protect

Share

Care

Occasional small quarrel...etc...

When i was challenged with the questions have i done any of those,it is unfair to comment about myself,at least in my capability i have done my best,and being denied at least the care that i showed to my friends is just like a slap to my face,and insulting at the same time.

In return,sometimes asking the same thing in return is so hard,especially if people are so self centered and tunnel visioned.Nobody is perfect,and a friend will accept that,at least this is within my comprehension.

We are reaching the end of the road(maybe...:) ) of this 5 years MBBS journey,may all the true friendships that are built last forever....

A fantastic MuSicAL night ....

Haha...today was a special day...eventful but it's been a while since i laughed so hard and shared best of times with friends.

I pestered Wilson and Kyan what to do for Dinghead's birthday....at first was feeling withdrawn with the idea of singing karaoke with them...but in the end i was thinking....:"haiya once in a thousand years lo...huhu"

Been preoccupied in the Psy ward for ECG...at the same time need to joined back those Karaoke Addicts for the event...so was running like a mad person all the way back to my room to change...luckily it was still not too bad...made it in time at least it seems...

The buffet was great,the company and singing plus funny moments were abundant...All captured in my "bling2" camera...hehe...really enjoyed the limited 2 hours of singing and buffet...The Cake fight was hilarious but it ended up Wilson and Vege needed to clean up the mess or charge extra money(blackfaced Red Box worker was not too happy with cream decorating their sofas and floor)...That Ding head threw a piece of the left over cake and hit my shirt....aaa.....should have stayed away....zzz ..The cake splashed and hit Kyan too...at the same time from Ding's hand some large pieces flew to Vege's neck...haha....So funny....

Then afterward we went to Asam Pedas who had this singing performance by a group from Philipines..Connie's Family...wow,their singing is just superb...and most of the songs we requested they tried to sing it...and they sang few of my favourite songs...."Every Breath You Take","You and Me","When You Say Nothing At All",and "Cant Take My Eyes Off From You"....It really felt good because they sang so well ...they added their own twist and flavour to the songs...plus their vocals....like Simon says...The X Factor...I bougth a CD though,but the live performance was way better....haha

Well...it was a great night and great company...Pages of fun memories to be cherish forever...

Awkward feelings...

Wow,nowdays i am bombarded with different degree and frequency of awkward feelings....

To name a few:

MPIS waiter-ish vest...(though screened by friends and stated not waiter-ish ...)

Giving stupid answers when asked by psy lecturers...

Flash back of Prof Lee's tie incident plus sequela that happen today(more like primal fear,hehe)....

Realized i really have trust issues....

Being around people that i really despised....

When having doubts wether friends are truely your friends and still need to interact with them...

The list will go on and on....Haha,my sister today just shared her awkwardness when attending her husband's relative's birthday party,probably we shared the same fate...like sister like brother...Hopefully no more awkward moments for my sister and i anymore....

(picture taken from http://icanhascheezburger.files.wordpress.com/2008/03/funny-pictures-staring-awkward-owl.jpg)

Another eventful day...:)

Yes...another eventful day had happen...woke up late today,so the hopeful plan of studying today had limited time since tuesday would be officially back to "school" day...then cleanse my room from all the accumulated dirt and dump my long waited laundry into washingmachine ,hoping for a everlasting bright sunshine on the rest of the day...

Then followed Flower and KY for a lunch,Bright mountain ,Goat and Neo also went but in the other car.There i witnessed how enormous a person's appetite can be and the honest opinions on "Lei Cha"(a kind of hakkha food with special soup plus lots of vegetable ),some of the honest comments on Lei Cha were very funny though(eg like cow eating grass...hehe) ...

On the way back Flower was feeling the steering wheel of his beloved wife became more stiff....after his further investigation....a puncture tyre...i was thinking...:"oh no....."...Then the tyre changing process began immediately...Flower had a "hard time" loosening the screws and fell on his back...haha...but eventually the tyre was changed and we were on the way back i kind of enjoyed the changing process but Flower said:"Choi!!"...haha...a learning experince for all....

Then it rained heavilly....In my mind:"oh no...........my clothes,blanket,bed sheets....no........( so many nos in this entry...)...might as well wash second time la....this is the consequences of poor judgement ...ran into the rain(sheltered by an umbrella of course) to save my clothes from further onslaught of the rain and dump them to wash second time....huhu...

Yes,an eventful day but with a smile....and hoping for something great to happen later(Flower and KY should know what i am talking about,haha)....(crossed my fingers)

Yes,this is the car with a puncture tyre

A result of hard labour...ohoho.....