Stranded again after swimming...zzz...

No....unfortunate things happen again...

After happily swam in UM pool(markedly improve water quality),the first intention was to buy bread in SS2...and disaster happen one more time travelling in motor with kim yan...zzzz

The motor just suddenlly went silent and refused to be ignite even after several vigorous attempt by Kim Yan.Conveniently i was being blamed again as the unlucky one to bring bad luck,aaa....no....

Guys if really afraid of bad luck and you believe it please dont come near me,initially i do believe in it,but in the end,i really need to remember :"shits happen."So,believe what you wana believe.

Sigh...shits really happen when you least expected it....I will RISE above....rise above.......aaaa....

1 day Conference In Prince Court Medical Center

My morning started with a voice outside zzzz......it was Kian Hua voice , asking me wether i wana join them (as a replacement)to go for a one day conference in Prince Court.I was still feeling very drowsy and a bit groogy....but after making sure there was no possible complication i agreed...it turned out to be a very great day for me.

The journey of getting to Prince Court was sort of a drama (between Azhani and Kian Hua)as the direction of getting there was not an easy task.I felt lucky i wasnt helping with the map reading...or else we would end up in god's know where...haha .The compound outside Prince Court was not as impressing(we couldnt even find the logo)as the interior part of the medical center...Kinda reminds me of Seattle Gray...But the overall design of the building is not the typical medical center...more like a five star hotel...

All the presenters and topics were very informative though some were quite out of my league and a bit boring(1 medical officer even fell asleep and snorred).Topic was focused on Cancer Cell Biology and case based discussion on colorectal carcinoma and breast carcinoma. The food was fabulous,and lots of gooffy moments through out the day.Plus i sort of patched things up with my very supportive studygroupmate (though it was a bit awkward and very hilarious when she admitted on reading my previous blog post,LOL...)

We snapped some photos and overall today it was a FINE day for me.I really need to thank the girl who let me replaced her and Kian Hua,Azhani,Selene and Rita for a great company.

Forensic....Death....

Today went to complete the quota on my forensic medicine...observed and signed 3 autopsies in one go...hehe...though not really all 3,the moment i went there 2 were nearly finish and 1 was just about to start.

Seeing those body lying there,really made me feel uncomfortable and experince sudden chills. Coming face to face with the "sequelae" of death,it felt so empty,and yet human are so fragile with such a brief existence.Those experts are really experts,1 did not even wore a mask ...And i find that human will lost their dignity after the soul has left the body(the scene of the body being manipulated,or handled in different ways triggered this thought)...

Some people might think why i get emo about dead bodies...but they were once alive with people that loved them...now it felt as though it was just an empty shell...

Plus today's case was extremely "challenging"because of the stench coming from the stomach content...one of the body was decomposing(found after a few days from the time of death)....huhu.....

Forensics medicine....i hope i never meet u again(aside from OBGY,PCM,SPM,Opthalmology .... XD)

A FURIOUS Day!!!!

Ah.....The anger,frustration,dissapointment and everything negatives had reached it peak today....

Posted to a posting than need to arrange every classess through the department,every lecturers are famous for the "ampleness",and another "very efficient" office guy than is running the job of calling and informing....Finally,the posting that had meet the match of PCM,opthalmology department....

They squeeze two session of clinic presentation in 1 morning,as if the anxiety of getting a new case is not enough,the very efficient office guy forgot to inform us than 2nd session lecturer prefer to do it in ward,therefore,clerk case in Ward,then i basically ran to the ward and find a case and clerk in 15 minutes.The Dr today had a very "nice" attitude towards me and so far everything had just been so perfect for that morning.

To add in the icing, i have very nice and supportive groupmates who would just complain and ask about anything unnessary(unsatisfactory oncal list,presentation to lecturer...etc),and everything in this world is about them.

The day was not finish yet,plus another issue with my "supportive" studygroupmate made me even more irritated....yes,that was the point where all the foul mood erupted...It just amazed me that humans can evolved into this kind of state...."selfish,self centered,self absorb,high dependency(as if in Intensive Care Unit)....Nearly all the words had the "self" inside....plus i keep imagining this picture in my head that my blood is being sucked dry by all these people(in my head it was a creature...haha...)

I Just want to shout outloud...:"Stop disturbing my Peace!!!!"

Tropic Thunder,must watch!!!

Another Ben Stiller movie which will just make anybody in the lowest mood to laugh out real loud again(since in an irritating posting plus irritating groupmates thus really need this boost...haa...)

Anybody who like lots of explosion,war like action plus endless of funny suprises perhaps this is the perfect movie to spend time on.Movies by Ben Stiller usually have certain level that meets my requirements...hehe...and this time he had Iron Man (Robert Downey Jr) working alongside with him,plus other bigtime actors and actress appeared now and then...

A day of joy and sense of relieve...

At last,after 1 week plus of intensive study(not really,slack off in the middle),and two days of pure adrenalin rush ,i passed my ACLS....:-D

Advanced Cardiovascular Life Support(ACLS) is a course held by Accident and Emergency department in UH.The course was very gruelling as i need to perform CPR and had a CPR competency test....Plus tons of treatment pathway for heart rhythms problems and how to use the defibrillator machine and...etc etc....Practical test(Megacode) and written test were on today...and i had a bad dream about it...huhu...Luckily still able to pass.

I would recommend to anyone who are interested to go.But better have more time to study and prepare for it,as it is not guaranteed pass even though u pass up RM500(another reason i was so pressured to pass this course)

All the instructors are very friendly and resourceful.Especially Dr Alex who indirectly pushed me to remember harder to say"i am goin to deliver a shock on 3!"....hehe...will never forget that.Dr Wee,Dr Izzad,Dr Khalid are also very helpful with all those extra tips...huhu..Thanks.....

Relaxation and rest,i Need you both....:)

Staying Alive-A must read

Stumbled on this particular books last 2 weeks ago and now nearly finish reading it.Ample time in current posting gave me a chance to do the many things i liked-reading :)

This book was written by Janet Reibstein,a book or rather a family memoir largely concerning about breast cancer.The book vividly described the nature of breast cancer ,its psychological effects on sufferers and surrounding people,the aftermath even after post operation.It started off with Janet's mother's,her aunts and finally it reached Janet herself.

It is interesting and eye opening to see and at least feel together with the writter how breast cancer can alter life but yet,not surrender to it.This lifestory demonstate courage to live, honesty,love and respect in the times of dire need.

Sometimes we have the urge to cry with patients or hide that drop of tear that may nearly escape while in the middle history taking .Often in reality,at least for me,all of this emotion got swallowed up.I always wonder,is it FINE to show how we truely feel,or just be the shoulder to let them cry on?We will be the bringer of good or bad news,and we will always forget,patients are humans like us too,all they need is another person aside from their family to tell them :"i am with you."

If you give this book a chance,you may get more than you bargain for.