Masquerade..different colours different shades...

The emotional turbulance and seeing other people's "sincerity" comments in recent events in my enviroment,brings back all those memories,especially the negatives one where the days were quite dark for me...It mostly revolves around human relationship ...What we call friendship,or if disagree,just plain human relationship.

Sometimes relationship may take off as something very precious,reliable and it is the most wonderful thing that may happen .In a peculiar new place where everything just started,one may try to seek some support/ reassurance ,a place where we can run back to / have some comfort when things go awry,or just share the joy and fun in life...

As time goes on,things happen...layers of layers of masks are revealed,and i could see the true colour underneath those beautiful lies....Some people just say things that contradict to what they did,some people manipulated others to gain their own benefits,some people are just blind enough that they are being played,some people pretend they cared but what's going on behind is another matter, some always make me wonder what are they thinking actually???

It is a vicious cycle,never ending circle of lies and manipulation...And when it is too late for me to realize,despair and dissapointment follow...People are so predictable ,as time goes on,it doesnt really matters anymore.Learning to forgive and forget is the most honourable thing to do...perhaps to release ourself from the chain of hatred/resentment,but when the integrity of the people you once think it is important is questionable,do you think it is still worth your time?

It is also a never ending lesson for me...relationship with other people/forgiveness....it is so complicated but i just hunger for something simple,more easy to digest,and without any complications,to let me be me...

NOise pOllUtion weekend...

It is a good wind of change that i see here in 6th college recently.NOw and then the new generation of juniors are keeping themselves busy with all the 'majlis-majlis','feista feista'....6th college which was once consisdered as quiet are now filled with activities and people...

There is always a catch,a double edge effect,while they are slashing away the old image of quiet 6th college(i dont really put any attention to anyway),they are slashing away my peace and quiet weekend(no harm done to them anyway)....sigh....Final exams are about to knock on my door step and i am kept disturbed by all of these noises.Especially the "fiesta '' today....different bands performing on Dataran Sentua plus various boothes stationed all around that area...i wont mind if the quality of songs are bearable....but the noise they are making is just purely utterly.....pollution....i am just wondering ...why sometimes those who played band would just record what they played and review how they sounded...(but if they did this probably they wont play in public...:D)

I do applaud their hardwork on putting such a massive activity on the go,but....i am just irritated by the pollution they made...(at the same time cursing that "you know who" junior who always make a big name for himself for who he is and associated to)

Sigh....hopefully it doesnt rain ...as a dip in the pool is a great escape from this noise invasion....

Headache...what is wrong???

Yesterday extending until today i have this headache....pulsating,intermitent,aggravated by bending forward,no other associating symptoms other than rhinitis (eg nausea,vommiting,photophobia....),and it is left sided...sinusitis came as the first diagnosis i could give myself....(been having this chronic rhinitis too....) sigh...tomorrow need to attend end of posting test,probably the severity will get aggravated ...

i hate headache.... go away please....

Come on come on...New Year 2009

1st day of new year...intended to spend it by another shopping spree...but was just too exhausted...another fruitful ANE visit :) last night and early morning of 1st Jan...

Been pondering ...what have i done for the past 2008...when at the start of new year,it is a norm to set some resolution /goals to acheive

2008...i think i didnt acheive much i wanted...haha...but my eyes are opened to peek and get to know people that are genuinely nice/sincere...friends and even some lecturers ,Drs and patients in UMMC...They inspired and help me in a way to become a better person and learn to live...Nothing remain the same ,so evolution towards a betterself is always a reason to celebrate about.

Another thing that i was happy about was learning swimming freestyle...at least i dont drink so much of the dirty pool water as time passess...and i have been putting on some weight...(consider an improvement?,costly though,new pants and all).ACLS experince...ohoho...oh,and my new study group formed in 2008 too...let all of us be strong and be excellent ...happy learning experince even though my volcanic like temper erupted before...haha...

Now...this is all it begins...:
1)Pass my final MBBS,at least feeling myself is competent/safe enough
2)Maybe put on some more weight,but i want muscle mass...not abdominal fatty tissue...nono...
3)Enjoy my final holiday after exam...so my travellingmates keras2 and Vege play a vital role...Borabudur here i come....
4)NO matter how's the going get TOUGH/ROUGH, i must continue to get going and survive!
5)Spend more time with beloved family(at least before going to Sabah?)
6)Maybe Bump into that special someone??maybe....
7)At last,become a good Doctor...

Hopefully this time everything will fall into places,time flies by and i am restart anew...

Shop till i broke...

Today is the day where once in a year, chrismast songs are playing in the air and at the same time i will be dazzled by the extravagance decoration in the city's major shopping malls....

The day started slow as yesterday visited emergency and trauma and kinda slept late in the early morning.

I went to a Korean Restaurant with James and Kyan and later proceed to Sunway Pyramid with Kyan.The food was great by the way,especially the dessert...

You will not believe the crowd in Sunway....the place was just filled with throngs of people here and there,young,old,funky,foreign,casual...you named it.The second amazement of the day was the chrismast tree in Sunway.Although not as impressive and breathtaking as the one i saw in One Utama last time,the Chrismast trees were nicely decorated with strands of clear strips illuminated from within by the trees decorated with many colourful lights.They all formed a cone shape and emitted a very indian style of deco(maybe due to the cone...haha)

Walking from shop to shop is a test on how to avoid bumping to people and test my patience level at the same time as i need to wait for some slowpoke to give way or make a u turn(sounded like driving in traffic...)But the joyous feeling i gained today was seeing lots of happy faces all around me,laughing at people who tried to ice skate,but failed...haha...evil....(one even need a wheelchair for assistance after a hard fall...oh my god...),buying things that i needed...Burned a lot of calories today.

We had a nice dinner and ended the shopping spree with a very expensive cab ride....Yes,today the last amazement was how much money that i spent.....

I may not realize or fully understand the true spirit chrismast,but from what i see today,it is a chance for friends,family,lovers to get together and spend precious time together,even though it means competing with strangers to grab the best shirt/pants among the bundles...

And i wish that one day i will experince a white chrismast.....snow....:)

Merry Chrismast my dear friends!!!

A dose of humor 1

i think the cat mistaken the tip of the nose as his mum's nipple...LOL...

by ichc.com

A beautiful day....

Although early morning class today with Prof Yip sort of reduced my sleeping time and the new admission gave me a small dose of adrenaline rush(cynthia told me about him last nite 1030pm...bummer),i find that today's weather is so nice...

The morning sunshine is so warm and occasionally breeze blowing...at the moment no (stat)obligation to be fulfilled and staying in the room is such a simple enjoyment....Though at the back of my mind sugery case summary , forensic report and growth project are still crying for some attention...haha...procastrination....bad habit....happens to all medical students...:)

Hopefully this nice weather and feeling last....