Holiday....where are you??

I cant wait to go on my holiday....days are getting a bit routine...but i made some new friends,gain lots of new experince,and finally found a posting which i fell in love with....still........i want holiday...............

I just have to say it

Power,authority corrupts people.Meeting a few of the seniors SP recently really reflect how true is the statement.

When they are in a higher authority and can manipulate things according to their wishes,it doesnt matter how it will affect others,the most important thing is wether they like it or not,regardless it is right or wrong.

When there's acheivement,when there's success,yes ,we must let the world know about it!Creating a fan club and forcing people to like it,wow....

When there's conflict in between departments,let just involve the HO in it,the more the merrier right?

The statement"houseman nowadays is a protected species,even SP afraid of letter of complaint by houseman to the DG" I was thinking:"If a good senior SP who knows how to teach well,doesnt really give a damn wether they are being complaint or not,because they are such excellent and sincere teachers."

Another statement who shocked me the most:"selectively we teach the housemans,only those who shows interest"Again thoughts are running in my head:"please say the things tht you do in reality,god please help us".

Im not a super best HO among the bunch,but seeing and listening to these kind of things,really made me wana laugh ,it's this the level we are at?

I am so sorry...

Life is so unpredictable,so is disease progression.Life always give me a lesson that i may never forget for the rest of my life.And people say im a Jonah now...Maybe i am

It happen within minutes....He was talking fine to me in high dependency unit minutes ago after the morning blood taking,suddenly collapsed and unresponsive the other minute.While doing the CPR,bagging the patient,my heart was racing.

"What went wrong?"

"Why a minute ago you were perfectly fine,now your pupils are fixed and dilated?"

"Why has you heart stopped beating ?"

"Are we missing something here?"

I tried to intubate but to no avail,i've called for help,i've given adrenaline,bagging and CPR....What else can i do???........

Eventually thing sorted out when help came.Difficult intubation but in the end he was more stable.

I cannot meet the gaze of her wife when i left HDU.

I cannot bear seeing the teary face of a 50's old lady,who wondering what had become of her beloved....

I cannot imagine her feeling of insecurity and worriness,of losing a person who been sharing years and years of love and companionship.

While walking out from the hospital,it was another beautiful day with clear sky and bright sunshine.Inside my mind was a different story...

Plan

Lesson kept on repeating,no matter how well you planned for the future,it may not always go accordingly...well....who cares,happiness matters right?