ONE OF THOSE DAYS....

Have you ever had one of those days where everything can just take the wrong turn?

Have you ever had one of those days where you feel so alone in the world?

Have you ever had one of those days where you missed the carefree days ,not a moment to worry about?

Have you ever had one of those days where you just want to run away and hide from all the nonsense the people around had created…?

The frustration and negativity, the sense of fear and never-ending problems/tasks…for a moment I just want it all to stop and give me a break.

For a moment, I regretted I had taken this path. At the peak of the negativity, I really feel like giving up and just run away….

I really do missed a lot of things….i missed the days where I have my family/friends near to me and I can just confide anything, anytime…barrier…separated by distance..

I need a source of strength…in the darkest hour of all….when will I see the light???

I need a place to go to…in the moment of weariness….when will I able to breath???

Sometimes it is just too much, and people and things around you just don’t know when to stop…

Humans are such a complicated being. Studying and learning to practice medicine, made the facts crystal clear. Patient’s life and new colleagues, it further stretches the viewpoint I had on life.
Emotions…what made us humans…I wonder if I have a switch and turn it off for awhile, wouldn’t it be great…

Perhaps this is just a phase I need to get through.
Perhaps by putting more effort and determination, the sun will shine again…Yes, the previous stress during medical school days seems so trivial now. This is the real deal…Depression during housemanship ,now I understand why it can happen…

(Ps: Didn’t meant to whine ,just wanted to vent out all the negativity built up inside for quite awhile ….hoping for an inspiration to type a more positive post next entry….and hoping for everything to turn for the better….)