Masquerade..different colours different shades...

The emotional turbulance and seeing other people's "sincerity" comments in recent events in my enviroment,brings back all those memories,especially the negatives one where the days were quite dark for me...It mostly revolves around human relationship ...What we call friendship,or if disagree,just plain human relationship.

Sometimes relationship may take off as something very precious,reliable and it is the most wonderful thing that may happen .In a peculiar new place where everything just started,one may try to seek some support/ reassurance ,a place where we can run back to / have some comfort when things go awry,or just share the joy and fun in life...

As time goes on,things happen...layers of layers of masks are revealed,and i could see the true colour underneath those beautiful lies....Some people just say things that contradict to what they did,some people manipulated others to gain their own benefits,some people are just blind enough that they are being played,some people pretend they cared but what's going on behind is another matter, some always make me wonder what are they thinking actually???

It is a vicious cycle,never ending circle of lies and manipulation...And when it is too late for me to realize,despair and dissapointment follow...People are so predictable ,as time goes on,it doesnt really matters anymore.Learning to forgive and forget is the most honourable thing to do...perhaps to release ourself from the chain of hatred/resentment,but when the integrity of the people you once think it is important is questionable,do you think it is still worth your time?

It is also a never ending lesson for me...relationship with other people/forgiveness....it is so complicated but i just hunger for something simple,more easy to digest,and without any complications,to let me be me...